My Generation
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In my generation, there is no going outside to play
We have to hustle hard to make sure we have a place to stay.
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The Beat Within, a publication of writing and art from incarcerated youth, was founded by David Inocencio in San Francisco in 1996. Weekly writing and conversation workshops are held in California, six other states and Washington, D.C. Submissions and new partners are welcomed. Write to him at dinocencio@thebeatwithin.org.
In my generation, there is no going outside to play
We have to hustle hard to make sure we have a place to stay.
I quit feeling bad for myself once I started looking at life from somebody else's perspective.
How can I forgive you and not myself?
I can’t forgive myself, yet I can forgive everybody else.
I forgive you for never being there.
I forgive you for never acting like you cared.
I couldn’t face my mom. I was hoping the operator would come and save me again. This time I would definitely hang up.
I will never forget when the steel cell door slammed shut behind me. I stood in the darkness trying to fix my eyes and readjust the thoughts that were telling me this was not home. That this tiny space would not, could not be where I would spend a nickel of my life.
Seventeen years ago, at the age of 16, I sat in a juvenile hall holding cell waiting to be booked in on first-degree murder charges, three attempted murders, a gun and gang enhancement.