Chasing the Dragon; Finding the Exit – Heroin Stories, Part 2

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Chris Blum. Photo by Ryan Schill

[“Chasing the Dragon; Finding the Exit” is part two of three part series about heroin addiction. Bookmark this page for updates.]

Editor’s Note: The following story contains graphic language and images. It may not be suitable for all readers.

One day, long before he found himself wanting to die in a cheap motel, Chris Blum got caught shooting up heroin at work.

Needless to say, he lost his job.

“That’s when I started going sort of full time. I was going out helping my drug dealer get money,” he said.

And then, Blum said, he had an epiphany.

“Man, I know where my drug dealers keep their money,” he said, laughing quietly. “I can jack them motherfuckers, too.” So Blum got a few of his buddies together and planned the heist.

At a table in a quiet coffee shop in suburban Atlanta, Blum mimed holding two guns with his hands, pointing his index finger at me and sticking up his thumb like a child playing cops and robbers. A bit too loudly for the coffee shop patio he said, “Freeze!”

“Then we’d kick the fucking door down, take the shit and leave. It was a good day.” Blum chuckled. A man sitting at an adjacent table looked uncomfortable.




It wasn’t long before Blum woke up in his motel room, still alive despite his wish to die. He broke down.

“I heard a voice, clear as yours sitting next to me, that said, ‘Get help,’” Blum said. He opened up the phonebook and called a treatment center.

Checking into rehab, Blum was about 50 pounds lighter than when he started using, all the while thinking he “looked like Hercules.” His face was skeletal; his blood counts, liver and pancreas were “all out of whack.” The treatment center kept him on IV fluids for eight days.

And he was about to feel worse.

“Oh man, detox,” Blum said, shaking his head. He inhaled and sighed heavily. “Dude, you’re hot. You’re cold. You’re delusional. You’re hallucinating. You’re angry. You’re guilty.” He couldn’t sleep. He was miserable.

According to addiction counselor William Parrish of the Gateway Center in downtown Atlanta, this is why many addicts never come in for treatment, even if they want to. It’s the “fear of the withdrawal,” he said.

Preparing heroin. Photo by Clay Duda

“It’s hell, dude,” Blum said. “It really is hell. At that point you don’t think it’s going to end. There’s no light at the end of the tunnel.”

For many addicts, he said, getting high is the more appealing option, even if they want to get clean. But for Blum, the discomfort was worth it.

“I was scared, I was ready to quit,” Blum said. “But you get to a point where you’re hollow, you’re empty. I mean I was ready to die.”

He stayed in rehab for 74 days. He spent eight going through detox. The rest of the time Blum was in counseling. If he wanted to get clean and stay clean, he needed an attitude adjustment.

“I liked being angry,” he said. “My anger was my way of intimidating you.”  But internally, Blum was scared to death.




Blum was lucky, but for those who choose to keep going, shooting heroin means risking their life every time they get high. In the life of a heroin user, “health conditions come from prolonged use,” Parrish said. According to the National Institute on Drug Abuse, dangers include “collapsed veins, infection of the heart lining and valves, abscesses, and liver or kidney disease.” Because heroin dealers routinely cut their product with any number of toxic chemicals or additives, users are also at risk of clogged blood vessels that could lead to permanent vital organ damage.

Photo by Clay Duda

In the past, Parrish said, users progressed over a long period of time from snorting and smoking heroin to shooting up. But the majority of new heroin users — mainly white kids from the suburbs, he said — are going straight to the needle, shooting heroin intravenously, something Parrish said he had not seen before. Heroin is dangerous enough, but injecting intravenously presents its own set of unique dangers, he said.

“The primary transmission of HIV is through sharing syringes,” Parrish said. Dirty needles also expose heroin addicts to other blood-born diseases such as Hepatitis C and to physical risks such as skin abscesses from injecting under the skin rather than into a vein. But where do heroin users get clean needles?

A report in the Journal of the American Pharmaceutical Association says 10 states, including Georgia, prohibit pharmacists from selling syringes for “illegal purposes.” Heroin use clearly falls into this category. This has proven to be a “significant obstacle” to the public health goal of reducing the transmission of viral and bacterial infections. Without access to clean syringes from pharmacies, intravenous drug users are forced to either share and reuse needles or find a quasi-legal needle exchange.

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5 thoughts on “Chasing the Dragon; Finding the Exit – Heroin Stories, Part 2

  1. I don’t understand what the guy who got clean has to do with the needle exchange program. In fact, the reason I’m skeptical of needle exchanges is that many don’t seem to have helping people get into recovery as a clearly stated goal – I’ve encountered needle dispensers who clearly romanticize the drug and the users and *want* to help people continue to get high rather than better. As long as harm reduction programs have people like that working for them they will not have credibility.

  2. I agree with the gentleman from Australia, thinking like the doctor above is outdated. Methadone in this country is a for profit industry and does little to help with addiction. We need needle exchange country wide, but sadly the southern states are not exactly harm reduction friendly. Needle exchange not only helps with risk reduction regarding HIV, but more importantly it helps with reducing Hepatitis C transmission. Thats 4 million plus in the US.

  3. Needle Exchange programs have been in place since the mid 80s all over Australia. IV drug users can get needles in many places in every city and even in country towns. We have one of the lowest rates of HIV transmission from needle sharing in the world. USA should do this as well.

  4. Response from Dr. Philip Paris
    Should we be giving needles to heroin addicts? It is safer, avoiding the contamination and spread of disease through the use of unclean needles. Still, I wish all of those addicts going for clean needles would go one more step and join a methadone maintenance treatment program. Those same people are still unable to function well, unable to maintain important family and friends in their life and still risking overdose from injecting heroin. And no question, they are more likely to be committing theft or prostitution in order to support their habit. No, I cannot really feel comfortable with needle exchange programs.